AAAAGGGGRRRHHH

Ok, so 8 days until I leave to fly to Bethel. But, I just went online to check which seats I have chosen for my flights to discover that one of my flights had completely disappeared from my schedule...  I phoned United Airlines and they told me my travel agent had cancelled that flight.  ????????  I have now spent over an hour and a half on the phone trying to sort it.  They assure me it will now be fixed in the next hour or so.  I feel like I have had enough now.  Enough.

I got no sleep last night because I was still stressing about when registration would open.  It opened at 1am our time (yes we have an 8 hour time disadvantage).  I had to try and fill in all the registers whilst the children were all eating breakfast... you only get 30mins so the pressure was on.  I did manage to select all my classes so that was a relief...  but now I am at the other end of a long day trying to sort out my flights again.  This is the 6th change united have made to my flights. 

I had the most clear prophetic words I have ever had to go to Bethel this year.  I am being sent.  Now I think it is a good job it was so clear as I have felt such a spiritual battle over this whole process.  I think I may have given up by now if God was not so clear.  I am reading about Joshua at the moment and teaching on it in assembly tomorrow....  again no coincidence I think:  The song "Be bold, be strong, for the Lord your God is with you" is rattling around my head.  I know God has given a promise and I know he will follow it through... I just like having my life in neat little boxes and really am finding this living by faith, every moment, unsettling.  Lord please make a way through :)

9 days to go....

It's 9 days to go.  Gosh, it is really coming up fast now.  My lovely mother-in-law helped me write a list today of all the things I need to do before I leave.  Some tasks vital (they have been starred), other tasks not so vital (mostly cleaning jobs.. might leave those).

Just settled down for a pleasant evening to find that I had completely missed the colour coding element to the class selection list I spent hours trying to sort yesterday.  Yes it indeed transpired that some of the classes I had chosen were 2 hours long instead of 1 hour, which meant I then could not choose another class in that time slot.  Confused?  I certainly was.  So I was back to the drawing board again.

So a few hours later and I am all sorted again.  In fact I am much happier as I have dropped a series class which meant I could have some fun and do other classes I wanted to do but couldn't before.  This, of course, is still dependent on me actually getting my choices...  Hmm.  Nothing like a bit of anxiety to keep you busy in an already hectic time.

No thoughts today about plummeting to my death in a plane though so that is a result.  Bit wobbly about leaving my children though.  Also very excited to find out today that there are others going from the UK.  I wonder if any will be on my planes... will have to check it out.

An overwhelming day

Today I have been through a huge range of emotions, from feeling so anxious I felt sick to elated and excited.  I woke this morning to find an email sending out all the course choices for Bethel School Of Supernatural Worship.   I am dyslexic and I was completely overwhelmed:  you have to choose 4 elected classes a day form a possible of 12 per session.  Some classes are repeated, some are a series and most are not repeated at all.  So you have to first decide what you want to do, then try and work it so you can attend all the classes you are desperate to attend.  It was a huge mammoth task to choose my options and fit them into the grid.  My wonderful friend Jamie who adores to administrate found the activity fun but it was my worst nightmare.  Hours later, lots of paper drawn all over, and a plan was assembled.  Now I have to wait for the grid to go online so I can choose my selection (1st come 1st served).  So after all that... I may not even get my choices.  A frantic day and I feel totally exhausted.

Ok so after cleaning my house and sorting out the dinner for the family I now taken a look at the choices I have made.  Awesome.  I was so consumed earlier to even think for a second how awesome this is going to be.  Over 400 course choices.... all on the topic of Worship.  I will be in heaven in more ways than one. 

10 days to go now.......... 

I feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster.  But although I am scared and anxious, I do not want to get off.

Bethel UK Tour

I had the most amazing time last night at the Bethel UK Tour in Bath City Church.  We arrived to find the queue wrapping around the building.  It was a beautiful art deco theater and we ended up right at the very top of the building.  I am very wobbly with heights and this was very very high.  I didn't have much leg room and it was extremely hot.  I could not see the stage very clearly and I was grumpy to say the least.  Then the band came on and Just prayed for the Holy spirit to come.  We waited and it came... like a fire.  We were all connected, we were ready and then we were off.

I forgot about the height, I didn't care that I couldn't see the band clearly (I could see God) and I made a break from my row and danced my socks off in the fire exit gangway.  I have never known worship like it:  I felt the presence of God so tangibly.  The worship team pointed to heaven and we all went there.  As the evening progressed I saw an empty seat further down the balcony nearer the front and I seized it as my own.  Then by the very end I turned to look for my friend and noticed she was not there... then I saw her head bobbing up and own at the very front next to the stage.  I ran down the stairs, pushed my way to the front and jumped like I have never jumped before.  If the roof had not been so secure I am sure it would have blown right off.

Not great qualilty but here is a clip of the evening posted on Youtube:

After the meeting the band were in the foyer chatting to people.  Praying for people.  No star status, just wanting to pass on their passion.  I talked to several of the people including Will Matthews and Jeremy Riddle:

Ok so it is a terrible picture of me... but you can see from the picture how happy I was and how friendly he was.  In fact I think my face stayed that colour for some time after the jumping ended.  Jeremy prayed that I would have the grace to leave my kids next month to attend the Bethel School of Supernatural Worship in California.  He said that he had 5 kids and found it hard leaving them too.  Will Matthews was telling me about the classes he is teaching and thought I should definitely come to those.  They did sound up my street so I will look forward to choosing my classes in the next few weeks. 

4 Weeks to go until I am at Bethel worshiping like that every day for 2 whole weeks.  I am going to LOVE it.